Changes

As many of you who know me IRL already know, Vitalay moved out of our house several months ago over the winter holidays, and we are now getting a divorce. This has been an unbelievably devastating and stressful time. At first, I was so overwhelmed by what was happening, I couldn't really talk about it, and instead poured all of my energy into taking care of my sweet little Leo, and finishing my last year of school, and trying not to get pulled under by the weight of my own sadness. For a long time, I didn't want to tell everyone because I felt like I was in a nightmare that I might just wake up from; maybe if I just waited a little while, V would come back and everything would be OK.

I have finally gotten my head around what at first was so incomprehensible, and have adjusted to life as a single mom. Things are certainly not easy, and every week seems to hold a new challenge, but I am dealing with all of them. And I finally feel like I can talk about it here and elsewhere, because it is my reality, and it's time to face it.

The truth of the matter is that ever since Leo's birth, my life has been filled with so much joy, I sometimes feel as though my heart will burst with it. We are both healthy and have a stable, happy home. I graduated magna cum laude from Columbia in May, and gave my sweet baby a snuggle afterwards.


 I am moving on and looking forward to our future. And I have so much to be thankful for that I go to sleep grateful every single night. We are going to be OK.

 Thanks for listening.